Where's My Angel

I wanted to write one more time, but wanted to divide up my thoughts from school and work to more emotional things.

For a while now, I've been dealing with the fact that I'm probably at 100% fault for losing a friend. I think it comes from miscommunication and probably a part of selfishness on my part. However, one thing that I do think is that it can't be ALL up to me to keep this friendship from going down the toilet. I guess I'm feeling like when I try to explain how I feel about something, or a reason why I can't do something, there isn't an understanding there. So, I guess, sadly, I may have to hand over my friendship card.

On a more up beat note, I have an important person in my life. We've had some ups and downs lately, but we keep talking and hanging out and I'm really enjoying having him in my life. I also realized that I can't try to box in and define this experience - just enjoy the time we are spending together.

I guess the experience of losing a friendship and working on a new relationship, I've noticed the amount of effort I'm expending. It's not that I don't care about my friend or losing this friendship, I just don't understand why it has to all be up to me to make sure we iron out things. But in this other relationship, he and I are BOTH working at things. WE are communicating with one another and being honest. It is not a one sided affection or interest...I think that's the difference is the mutual interest in working on things.

More to come....

Changes

It's been a while since I've written on my blog and quite a lot has happened over the last few weeks.
My school endeavors finally have direction - I was accepted to the Paralegal program at Boise State - and that was great. Now that we're in the second week of school, I realize that I have bitten off a lot; but I think I can handle it.

Work is also going good. Just need to keep motivated to keep learning new things at my job; but also realize that there is a future for me outside of my current job. While I want to stay within the medical industry (I think), I'm looking toward what I can accomplish.

Last Year as a Wilson

So tonight I was talking to my sister and I made a reference to "this will be my last Thanksgiving" - a joke from a few years ago - and she said to me that this is her last year as a Wilson. I got pretty sappy when she told me this and I started to, of course, get a bit teary eyed. It's not for being sad that my sister is getting married - it's for the changes that life bring and that sometimes they take your breath away.

She asked me to be her Maid of Honor a few weeks ago - and that also took my breath away. Just thinking of being there for my sissykins as she is married to a wonderful man makes me happy. I know that doesn't describe the fullness of what I feel, but I am so happy that she found the one for her.

I don't know if I necessarily believe in soul mates, but I believe that people fit together and my sissy and David fit. Congrats sissy and David. I love you guys.

Dupree :)